Where did I go?
I went the way of all the world.
See, there's nothing wrong with making money.
And if hot topics are what makes money, you better write yourself up some hot topics.
I do want to make money.
But not here. Not now.
I'm beginning to realize this is going to be yet another gut-transparency-with-Faith kind of post.
So here goes.
Back in 2006 when I began blogging, I wrote because I wanted to write, and I wrote because I wanted to tell people about Jesus, because, if you haven't heard yet, He's our Savior!
Life changes, and jobs change, and responsibilities change, yet a writer must write.
I've written a bit here and there over the past 10 (wow!) years, and during that time I've graduated from high school, attended and graduated from college, worked at a ministry, got married, moved twice, quit my job, and made oh so many life, business and ministry goals for myself.
When people ask me what I do, I say, "I'm a writer," and that has become so much easier to say since I published my 31-day devotional at the end of May. (Shameless plug: you can get it by subscribing to my email list. ;)
Yet somehow I still feel like I'm playing house.
I thought, maybe if I start making money, I'll feel like a writer, I'll feel justified in quitting my job and staying home even though I don't have kids yet.
So then I had to figure out what sorts of things one can write about that generate income. I do like writing about health and homemaking, I really do. But that is not why I write this blog. These things certainly point to Christ. But I began this blog with the express intent of getting into the Word of God because when we seek Him, we become radiant.
My favorite hymn is "Come Thou Fount," and the third verse acknowledges my tendency to get distracted: "Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it. Prone to leave Thy throne above." I think this wandering doesn't just mean walking away from faith altogether, but becoming derailed by anything that pulls us away from the center of God's heart.
Being a writer after God's own heart for some might mean writing about homemaking and health and hospitality full time. That is not what it means for me. I may sometimes feel a prompting to write about one of these topics, but it is rare.
So I'm coming back to the purpose for which God called me to write: to point women to the Word of God for every situation in life. This is where I find peace and fulfillment in my writing, and I believe this is where I able to minister with all of my heart. If I never earn a penny, so be it.
I still feel like I'm pretending to be an adult in all of this. Please assure me I'm not the only one. I'm doing my best to follow Jesus, step by faltering step.
"Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it. Seal it for Thy courts above."
